And nobody actually know how exactly failure feels like. But anyone can know how to avoid one.
That’s the thing. Why is everyone so afraid of failing? Why is failure not an option? Subhannallah, God didn’t make us humans perfect. But that doesn’t make Him a failure. Maybe, just maybe all that He intended to do was for us to learn how to fall, so that we can learn to pick ourselves up.
I am in no position to think the way He thinks, but it is a thought.
I did something incredible today(more precisely, yesterday). It’s a decision that has been made several years back but it took several years after to figure what, how & when to make it into a reality.
I officially resigned from any active role from my 14 year old rollerblading crew, KJROLLERS. Yes, they are my own version of the “Band of Brothers“. The battle scars that I’ve accumulated over the years are like tatoos that will always reminds me of the great years I had in life as a skater & also as a friend. Was I a good skater, was I a good friend? That answer remains to be unanswered. And I prefer it to be mysteriously that way. Oddly enough.
I don’t regret letting it all go & moving on to be a simple boring geek in this underestimated world. When I think back, without those years, I wouldn’t had made it alive & well today. To be honest to the world, I have never felt better. It’s like nagging thought that has been hidden and keeps scratching for an itch that was never there yet. And now it’s gone. I saw freedom.
It’s ok not to be cool. But it’s not ok to be unable to free yourself when you know you can. That, is not cool.
To the KJROLLERS, I wish them the best of luck & may the group reach success where no one has ever reached before. This I know will happen. In fact, it’s been happening all the while.
Thank you for everything. Thank you for being my friends.
I totally didn’t notice this at all when all this while watching P.Ramlee’s infamous “Bujang Lapuk” films. The video link was passed around in a mailing-list. Totally unexpected, but seriously hilarious. And it was from the 50s. Just imagine the perception the rakyat had back then.
His disaster farside makio over the kink made my balls shrink & run for cover! It was a nail biting moment waiting for him to lace the trick.
Thank you to all for coming & if you’d like to share your moments in this year’s S4S5, just register yourself with Stunts4Swag.com & post your stories & experience during the competition. Remember to link your photos from other image hosting websites like Flickr or ImageShack because the site runs on a tight budget web hosting. But you can upload your own photos if you want. Soon, you’ll be able to upload your photos to the site itself. I promise!
Congratulations to Ilman aka Lui for winning this year’s Stunts 4 Swag! Bling bling! It was a good return of investment, so to say =D
Thanks to the Ed & Kajang crew for the awesome England Clothingt-shirt. I’ll be wearing it tomorrow at work!
Photo courtesy of Wheel_Love. Read their post. Read the Stunts4Swag.com post.
I received an interesting comment regarding my post debunking the myth of how we Malaysians celebrate Aidilfitri. It was a chit chat between a friend & former business partner back in the days. He simply said,
“Naz, you made people feel ashamed”
And yes my friend, that is the whole point.
I have no reason to put down or bring shame upon my own kind, but I have a responsibility towards my faith & my fellow Malaysian Muslims to bring forward the truth about our own manipulative & strayed perception.
The main problem about some (maybe majority) of us Malaysian Muslims is that we have this holier than thou attitude. Try to think for a moment & ask yourselves, are you really holier than me? No pun intended to my fellow friend, as in the end, he sees my point of view, but that doesn’t necessarily mean he agrees with me. And I’m cool with that. You can’t force people to agree with you can you?
I admit that I have my own set of weaknesses that does put shame to myself. I myself have done things that shouldn’t be done in my years as a human being. I know where I stand & I have taken the time to understand why my faith proactively reminds me the things I shouldn’t do. I took time to learn about my faith. And here’s my question, did you take time & learn about your faith or you just left it all behind when you left high school & started to have a girlfriend?
I see this hypocrism practiced by our own people as a weakness that can be manipulated greatly by not only ourselves, but also other people who are not us. You shout battle cries whenever someone speaks against your faith, but ask yourself this question; are you really that alim to even understand the extreme degree of responsibility in protecting your faith? Are you really doing the right thing?
I ask myself that question everyday & I thank God that he has given me the amount of intellect to deduce what is right & what is wrong in my everyday actions. Kena selalu beringat, as my mother has always reminded me.
Some of you speak of freedom should be granted & given to everyone equally. But what is freedom without responsibility? Are you responsible enough to protect other people eventhough you can’t even protect yourself?
Tell me and I will listen. Maybe you are holier than me.
An interesting article by a modern, seculared Malay woman. Though this article does present a slight hatred against polygamy, but I applause the writer for being thoughtful in her writing. She admits that the modern thinking Malay women that exists today has more weaknesses rather than strengths, especially when it comes to men.
I admire modern Malay women, but I despise them for taking matters about men for granted. Which is why I’m still single. Sob.
I admire modern Malay women, but I despise them for being a hypocrite in matters than men can’t do what they can do. To make it worse, they seem to think to be able to handle EVERYTHING, or so they say.
I admire modern Malay women, but I despise them for taking religion for granted. Why do you think that in the end, a modern Malay man will marry a simple kampung girl who has a better understanding about life & religion.
I admire modern Malay women, but I despise them for thinking that they’re are independent, ALL THE WAY thru life. As men, we are independent by nature. But in the end, we realised that we need a woman, or women. Heh.
I admire modern Malay women, but I despise them for thinking that intimacy is only for Romeos & Juliets. Why do you think men find intimacy elsewhere?
Men has their obvious weaknesses, but women has their obvious denials. Full stop.
P/S: With this post, I definitely ain’t gonna get any ass :(
There’s one thing unique about Malaysians: we’re able to aggravate everything & anything. We tend to re-culture ourselves with a our own version of religion/cult, politics, tradition, etc. This sort of evolution & progress, if I may, shows how creative we Malaysians really are.
Let’s look at Hari Raya Aidilfitri & how we Malaysian Muslims exaggerate & aggravate the festive.
Aidilfitri is like the winning race day, the celebration day for us Muslims after one month of fasting. We fast for a reason: to understand the feelings of desperation & of the poor. If we survive this ordeal, we should be able to make our conclusion that there are people out there who suffer & go thru life worse than us. With this in mind, we should be thankful with what we have.
But sadly, that’s not the case for some Malaysian Muslims.
I’m ashamed to see that there’s a big number Malaysian Muslims who does not take the month of Ramadhan seriously. They skipped a day of fast, or worse they totally skipped the whole 30 days. I’m not perfect either, there were days that I skipped fasting when I start to feel really really desperate, whether I was too thirsty or too hungry. When I start to indulged myself, the feeling of guilt comes by in a flash & I start to wonder if this was the right thing to do (not fasting, i mean). Being a moderate & flexible religion, in Islam, if you skipped a day, there are ways for you to pay back that debt you have with God. And it is between you & God.
Then comes Aidilfitri, which falls on the 1st day of Syawal. We celebrate the success of our test. We celebrate the meaning of life. We celebrate the meaning of togetherness. There are certain activities, so to speak, in the celebration of Aidilfitri which doesn’t exists in the core of Islam. But being Malaysians, we just do whatever we like… (sing to tune of T.I)
Duit raya. The act of giving duit raya doesn’t really exist in Islam at the core. This act was copied from another celebration, Chinese New Year. Yes, we Muslims should bersedekah, I agree. But as usual, we Malaysians put that concept one up to another level. Now, it has become an act to train our children to be beggars, golddiggers & worst of all, to love greed. Kids nowadays are not thankful for the gift of duit raya, they demand for it.
Baju raya. In Islam, it is a sunnah (an option for a good cause) for us to wear beautiful & new clothes on the 1st day of Syawal. It’s a sunnah in Islam, but a culture in Malaysia. I’d like to call it the Raya Fashion Show. Glitter here, bling bling there. Most of us forget that one of the teachings of Ramadhan is for us to know how to be frugal. But no, not for us Malaysians. It’s like a one big Malaysian Top Raya Model competition. And to make it worse, we overspend.
Bulan raya. Malaysians celebrates Aidilfitri for a month. In truth, Aidilfitri is meant to be celebrated on the 1st day of Syawal only. But we celebrate it for a month. Wow. Seriously wow. Of course, the month of Syawal lasts for 30 days & by our Malaysian way of logic thinking, Aidilfitri is automatically celebrated for 30 days. Truthfully, this is one hype I really despise as this festive has been commercialised to the extend that we Malaysians accept that is the way to celebrate Hari Raya.
There are lot of weird things that doesn’t exist in Islam regarding celebration of Aidilfitri, but these are the top 3 that I think requires a lot of re-thinking in our part as Malaysian Muslims. Think about changing ourselves first before you start thinking to change other people.
I said many things but the one that got the audience most worked up was when I said a good leader knows when to retire. You are not a good leader if you don’t know when your sell by date has come and when you can retire to give someone more energetic with new ideas.
Tony Fernandes, CEO of AirAsia.com
True that Uncle Tony. Let the young guns give a refreshing change to your startup, company or organisation. Read more from his inspiring post.
By far, this is the saddest thing I’ve ever read. It could be a media play, highlighting bad “behaviour” of Malaysians, showing how desperate they really were. It is a sign of the great depression, as “don’t give a fuck” attitude is seeping into veins of people who needs to make ends meet.
To those who are fortunate, as usual, judgement comes from their own point of view. Try to live the desperate life that squeezes every inch of you, maybe then you will learn to understand how it actually feels to be desperate. But then again, people fear what they don’t understand, preach what they think they understand.
Desperation. You need to be desperate to understand desperate.
When I searched on Google for “suhosin debian etch”, I was looking for good tutorials & references to help me have a clear mind on what I was about to do. Patching is easy, but patching without knowing the (latest) side effects can drastically cripple whatever web applications already installed in those servers I have. Risky. I found this tutorial on HowToForge and thought that I can try test the tutorial on my Debby desktop first.
Ultimate fail! Eeek!
The Suhosin patch I downloaded didn’t work with Debian’s latest php5 source. I double checked again, and I found that the tutorial provided by HowToForge was outdated. They were referring to a php5 Debian build etch1, and the current build I have is etch11. Sigh.
So, if you’ve installed php5.2.0-8+etch11 (you can check the version by running phpinfo()) and you want to secure your PHP installation, here’s my super speed 3 step-to-a-hardon:
Get the Suhosin package: sudo apt-get install php5-suhosin. Install any dependacies required.
Restart your Apache webserver
Run phpinfo() again & voila! Fully hard on… errr… hardened PHP5.
Why did the earlier HowToForge tutorial doesn’t work? Apparently, Debian has heavily patched their php5 packages for ultimate security if you plan to live without Suhosin. I love Debby!
Now it’s time for Gentoo patching. A busy raya ahead, got to finish this quick!
