If only I had not flinch.
If only I had been patient.
If only I had been empty. Still am.
If only I had been rigorous.
If only I had been hardworking.
If only I had been friendlier.
If only I had been more kind.
If only I had been more loving.
Then this year wouldn’t suck as bad as it feels right now. Reading back your own blog probably makes you feel like that. Particularly when it’s the only avenue for you to pour everything out, keeping nothing in.
If only I didn’t suck. Happy new year.
It has been 30 days since I left home (but often enough, I went back because it’s so near!) to a place where I have few friends, and for obvious reasons, doesn’t feel like home. To be honest, this is the 2nd time I left the comfort of home for something that was unknown to me. The first was Langkawi. Though that situation cannot be in the same category of the current situation, I was left to tend to myself. Starting over is not something easy. But it’s not something impossible. As of right now, I am hoping for the impossible to happen. Continue reading
A month ago, I turned 30. A month later, I took a bold step for mankind (yea right muthafucka). But nevertheless, I’m so grateful for how things turned up. I’m so thankful for the support I received from friends & family. I’m soooo happy to see the people I’ve been trying to help are helping themselves. It’s a major progress in Malaysia’s mankind. One step at a time yo, one step at time.
But seriously, I’m still nervous as fuck. Only God knows for what I am to become. I don’t even have a clue.
I guess everybody has heard by now that I’m leaving KL for Singapore. I’m such a attention-whore (who isn’t nowadays? If you’re on Twitter, you’re pretty much in the same camp). That aside, yes, I’m leaving for Singapore to undertake a new role and maybe a chance to build a new life. Continue reading
While packing up my stuff, I found lots of old treasures.
Old programming books. Access programming. Yeah, I know. Continue reading
The common funny question I get these days. I somehow thought that it’s real obvious what I do for a living. I mean, it’s real obvious if you read my CV at LinkedIn (http://www.linkedin.com/in/nazroll). But seems like what I do for a living is still like a “mystery” to some people. I think for once, I need to clear that up. Continue reading
It feels nothing. Finally coming into the age of 30, I actually feel nothing. Nothing really excites me this year. Truly.
On a career level, I still think I’ve a long way to go to get there. Though the going has been tough, but the results have been truly encouraging. All these new experiences, new mistakes, new found colleagues; so far it’s been hell & heaven. It’s always hell. Heaven later, if it works out.
On a personal level, status quo remain unchanged. Pretty much no improvement from years & years of dry spell. Karma’s a bitch, and she’s slapping me with both of her hands. The cheeks doesn’t look normal anymore. When are you going to stop? I guess it pays to be not nice. Continue reading
Finally, Google DevFest is coming to Kuala Lumpur! Happening on the 16th of July 2010, DevFest is set to rock your socks with technical sessions conducted by engineers from Mountain View, California. The objective here is to engage Malaysian developers with the latest best practices & techniques from the visiting Googlers. Come and join in the fun! You can register yourself here.
OK, what’s all this report card shit? Trying to be cool?
Not intentionally. It’s more like a personal note of what has been achieved so far. Disasters and small wins, those are my achievements. I’m kinda weird, in a sense where I measure myself by everything I do. I’m not entirely an angel.
So here goes…
Droid was found dead on the scene with no fingerprints. Rest in pieces.