The feel of failure
And nobody actually know how exactly failure feels like. But anyone can know how to avoid one.
That’s the thing. Why is everyone so afraid of failing? Why is failure not an option? Subhannallah, God didn’t make us humans perfect. But that doesn’t make Him a failure. Maybe, just maybe all that He intended to do was for us to learn how to fall, so that we can learn to pick ourselves up.
I am in no position to think the way He thinks, but it is a thought.
I did something incredible today(more precisely, yesterday). It’s a decision that has been made several years back but it took several years after to figure what, how & when to make it into a reality.
I officially resigned from any active role from my 14 year old rollerblading crew, KJROLLERS. Yes, they are my own version of the “Band of Brothers“. The battle scars that I’ve accumulated over the years are like tatoos that will always reminds me of the great years I had in life as a skater & also as a friend. Was I a good skater, was I a good friend? That answer remains to be unanswered. And I prefer it to be mysteriously that way. Oddly enough.
I don’t regret letting it all go & moving on to be a simple boring geek in this underestimated world. When I think back, without those years, I wouldn’t had made it alive & well today. To be honest to the world, I have never felt better. It’s like nagging thought that has been hidden and keeps scratching for an itch that was never there yet. And now it’s gone. I saw freedom.
It’s ok not to be cool. But it’s not ok to be unable to free yourself when you know you can. That, is not cool.
To the KJROLLERS, I wish them the best of luck & may the group reach success where no one has ever reached before. This I know will happen. In fact, it’s been happening all the while.
Thank you for everything. Thank you for being my friends.
Posted on October 16, 2008 @ 12:33 AM Filed under Colors Of Muhibbah, Family, Friends & Food!, Me, Myself & Eureka, Rollin` With My Hommies. You can leave a comment or trackback from your website.
