It’s official! It’s already a month, and I feel suck! My body seems to be fighting back my mental block by generating a lot of useless hormones to make me huff and puff again. And because I said “NO”, the body seems to be rendering me useless. Almost useless.
The day before, I was bed ridden. The day after, I was ok. The next day after, I was choking my nose. The next next day after, the common signals for an asthma attack has come. My, oh my. What the fuck is wrong with my body? Am I dying? Will I meet an angel?
Or this is just the common health reaction for a used-to-be heavy duty smoker like me?
Well, whatever it is, I’m going through this for the sake of myself. And I hate myself for being useless.